Friday, October 31, 2008


I am confused. What exactly do I want from my life?
Since C comes into the picture, entah apa-apa yang I rasa.
Somehow, I feel like a teenager again where in reality my
children are the teenagers...

Ca, call me please! I know you don't want to catch me at a bad
time. But dear, I really need to talk to you before I go back home.

Oh dear...

Better Late Than Never

Just wondering where u are...Home or away?

My dear spider sorry for the late reply.
I am in town. Called your office just now but
I guess you're out.
Anyway miss u.

Tak pe. I miss u too, dear.

Hmm...what you didn't know was I waited for you reply all night long.
I thought the message did not get through.
Oh dear, I miss you...

Friday, October 24, 2008

Kring kring

Nice talking to you.
Terubat rindu. Tak tipu.
Enjoy the long break, I'll be thinking of you.

Miss you too. Didn't expect u to rindu kat I.
But I really do miss u n that's why I called u tadi.
I'll call u again later. Enjoy the weekend.

Bye, my dear.


Hi dear spider.

Hope everything ok with you.
How's the trip to KK? Had fun back home?
Missing you. C

Hi C. I'm just fine, tq.
The balik kampung trip went well though I was alone.
Nice of you to still remember me, my dear.
I'm missing u, too.

For your info, I will always remember you, my dear spider.
Nice to hear that you enjoyed your trip.
Wish that we could have teh tarik or something one of these days.
Wanted to call u but I'm not sure whether you're free or not.

For u to remember me is good enough.
Having teh tarik with you is the icing on the cake.
Too sweet...bad for health.
Sekali sekala tak pe.


And we talked and talked and talked. Just like we did back during prep time many years ago. Talking has never been so good.

I still remember the tagline from British Telecom(BT) TV advertisement
"It's good to talk"

I cannot agree more...

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Morning Has Broken

Hi dear,

This is my all time favorite.
It reminds me of MsL, my music teacher during school days.
She certainly gave her all when teaching.
We also sang this during our Girl Guide weekly meeting.
I never actually paid attention to the lyrics before.
But gosh the words are beautiful.
The song is so spiritual.


Morning Has Broken - Cat Stevens

Morning has broken, like the first morning
Blackbird has spoken, like the first bird
Praise for the singing, praise for the morning
Praise for the springing fresh from the word

Sweet the rain's new fall, sunlit from heaven
Like the first dewfall, on the first grass
Praise for the sweetness of the wet garden
Sprung in completeness where his feet pass

Mine is the sunlight, mine is the morning
Born of the one light, Eden saw play
Praise with elation, praise every morning
God's recreation of the new day


You Are Guilty

Hi dear,

I read some stuff on infidelity written by fellow bloggers. I learnt about 2 categories of infidelity: emotional and physical.

Huhh, unconsciously, I might be guilty of infidelity, both emotional and physical. Or maybe it is done consciously as my way of retaliating to the situation.

Whatever it is, I feel that I am fighting a losing battle. Should I just surrender?


Is it good not to talk?

Hi dear,

Last night, M complained that he doesn't get support from me, that I only talk to him to ask for rm, that I ignore him, etc..etc. Sigh 3x

Definitely, we are not living in a marital bliss for quite some time already. Lately, I have actually reached a point whereby I cannot take the constant bickering between us that I resort to minimizing all means of communication with him. And gosh, we still manage to meet heads on...whenever we open our mouths that is.

As usual, I will end up crying silently. Not because I was sad or hurt by the cutting words but more because of the anger that build up inside me. We are two different people living under one roof. We fail to complement each other. Instead, we torture ourselves by being together.

I notice that of late M spends a lot of time fiddling with his beri beri and the laptop. I wonder who his cyber friends are. Apparently, they are not experiencing any communication breakdown.



Hi dear,

C actually asked for my forgiveness for having some kind of "thoughts" about me before. He refused to tell me more. What could it be, I just wonder.

Anyway, I stumbled on some quotes while bloghopping today. Could they have any similarities to the kind of thoughts C had on me?

Hmmm...Read on...

If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

History tells me that i'll keep wanking over the image of her regardless. i'm saying - someone you secretly lust for, AND someone else's property! = super wendy whopper turn on!
if you're talking bout love though, mm ,err hrgmh, frk, i'll still stick to the wanking. crying while fapping away might not be the most romantic thing ever, but it sure is close.


C dear, I forgive you, regardless...hmmm


Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Hi dear

Welcome aboard. Pour your heart out.