Friday, September 30, 2011


I am having a sleepless night. Please help...
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Sunday, September 25, 2011


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Monday, September 19, 2011

unconditional love

are parents given the option to stop caring for their children? i dont think so. if you dont like your wife, you can do something about it. if you dont like your child (perangai) he/she will always remain your child.

you cannot simply say, "i dont care about you anymore. i have done you do whatever you want..."

for me, you must never give up on your child no matter what. keep on praying that he will eventually take the correct path. always shower your child with love. let you child know that you are always there for him.

you dont go to the bank and withdrew all the savings that you have under his name...

i have this formula that all my children must have savings that is more than their age ( kalau 10 tahun, mesti ada 10K).

i am taking care of the savings of three quarter of my children and the remaing quarter is under husband's responsibility. i make sure their savings semua exceed their age including the one in college. in fact the eldest dah buat haji pun using own savings and the balance pun still lebih the age.

however, the child under husband's responsibility is not that fortunate. as a punishment for him, husband had withdrawn a big chunk of his savings. now his duit tinggal ciput aje.

i am very disappointed with husband's action. how could he?

Thursday, September 15, 2011

sakit hati sesangat

i need to visit a relative tomorrow. she is having some personal problems. i asked husband's permission. he said ok. i told husband that i want to bring along my anak along.

husband said no.

i said that i want anak to teman me.

husband said, it is up to me (if i want to disobey his orders).

i told him, why not husband teman me instead.

he replied, "saya banyak kerja!"

i am very angry....angry..angry that i cried quietly.

it is so unfair!

i cant even bring my own anak to accompany me.

mimpi siang

i got an email from matp yesterday. he asked me why i was very quiet lately. i have not responded to his bbms for a long time. i just read them and immediately cleared the messages.

well, i told him that i just didn't feel like chatting (with him). that was the reason. he wasnt happy with my answer but i just dont care. gasak le.

alhamdulillah, i tersedar dari mimpi di siang hari.

i dont want to have anymore mimpis di siang hari.